I’m an Aqua sun, Libra Rising… Aries Moon. I generally have a very introverted but chill always kind of vibe, but my “moon realm” (emotional responses and needs) has always kind of offset my chill. I know there are other places in the chart to look, and this is a simplistic way of looking at it, but allow me the big 3 analogy.
My moon is in the 6th house, which I feel gives me the emotional need be helping people, as well as a strong link between moon activity and my health (emotions seem to transform into physical issues). I think the moon in the 6th house also creates a need for one’s routines and habits to be observed. So – overall, having the moon in my 6th house sort of adds a lot of physical exhaustion and even pretty serious depression when my needs aren’t being met.
Aries is the child of the Zodiac and has an intense but fast energy. I remember learning that this described my moon sign for the first time and being shocked at how accurately it described me when I’m having “an episode”.
Now that I’m an adult, I don’t frequently have episodes of random bursting into tears as much as I used to, but as a child I had an issue with it. When I started understanding things in my life and had my first really painful experience (around 8-9 yrs), I remember developing this weird habit of crying myself to sleep. Don’t get me wrong, I was sad– our family had been caring for a foster child who was very abruptly placed back with her mother, so I felt like I lost a baby sister. No one was helping me understand at the time and I was in an acute state of depression for several years. Back to the crying thing though, I did it almost ritualistically. I needed to do it. Much like a compulsion that might plague someone with O.C.D., I simply had to have this cathartic nighttime crying session every single night or things would just not be okay.
There was a lot of this kind of thing throughout my childhood, and I was put on anti-depressants at 14 because I had finally gotten caught self-injuring (also something I did as more of a ritual than anything else).
So fast forward to today.
When my partner and I get into any kind of disagreements, I feel like I become a desperate little girl. He tends to respect and value self-reliance and maturity a lot, so when I get into this mode it’s really damaging to our relationship. Even if he’s the one being a turd, I feel so sad that we’re not getting along that I just cannot stop crying. Texting him like a yipping little dog, begging for forgiveness, or trying to bark out my little opinions followed by a million I’m sorries. I can sense how freaking annoying I’m being, but I have SUCH a hard time stopping every single negative emotion from descending upon me and being expressed immediately. Sometimes I feel like hot prickly tingles under my skin and something about my skin itself changes (itchy, every touch leaves huge welts).
But, eventually… I get involved in some kind of mental activity, and it shuts off. If it was a fight with my boyfriend, the second he apologizes or even sends an EMOJI that isn’t negative (ridiculous!), I am calmed immediately. And almost… like I just took something to calm down. Kind of drowsy and removed.
I don’t know if there are any Aries or 6th house moons that might identify with anything I’ve said here, or if I’m just misattributing my own issues to astrological placements.
Anyone else want to write a “musing” on how they feel any particular planet?